no 1 do really understand mi... i jus wan sum1 who can alway call mi out to play and tok to mi... is tat jus so hard... alway left mi out... ppl alway tok in a group among themselves... i am transparent... my parent they jus dunno what i really wan... alway say i am a lone-ranger... but do they understand y am i a lone-ranger??? no they dun... wat if a am a guy... guy hav feeling too... i am not a stone or rock... hai... anyway now a day i am back to the bb court again... so fun when playing wit wei qiang and kok yong... haha bernard and cai zhi improve so much in bb... i may lose them any time... today play match together in a group so long nv hav that feeling... so happy... hope every day can b like tat...